Jamuel ~ my never-ending worry

My worry for Jamuel has finally proven me right! He did not make it for his final year and will be transferred to Sec 3 Normal Stream (A) next year. Though he did make an improvement in his SA2 but his 'very' poor performance in the early part of the year has dragged him down totally. I truly understand his capability and short-comings, so perhaps this is a better choice for him. Deep down I'm feeling upset for him as I do not know when is the day he's going to 'wake-up' and start improving on his 'never care a damn' attitude. Now I just pray & pray that he doesnt get more influenced mixing with the 'more playful' students in Normal Stream ..... haiz.........haiz........... which is what most parent is worried about!! Jamuel ah Jamuel!!! please can you just spare a moment to think sensibly and seriously reflect on your wrong-doings and weaknesses,etc, etc, and give yourself a chance to build up your confidence again and prove to everyone that you can still succeed if you REALLY want to ...... "IF THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY". Maybe he treats me as a 'Broken Record'~ always playing the same music over and over again..... and thus never really get to understand the lyrics and the meaning to it. At times, I do admit my words may be too harsh or hurting to him (which I rather it come from me then to hear it from others), but at the end of the day, I still hoping that he understands and knows my LOVE & CARE for him..... cos all this while I've never Given-Up on him. Even though if that's his life and his fate, I will never ever want to see him facing failures in future.......and that's my never ending worry for this Boy!!!.